After a month of having you in my life, your daily texts and phone calls ran dry and I no longer heard from you. Proposed plans of things we wanted to do together were abandoned like ghost towns. The dream had ended. It was an absence, a crime of the heart. There was no goodbye or anything resembling a goodbye. There was just nothing and silence as questions were asked to no one and as I answered those questions under the pretense of assumptions knowing full-well that explanations would never come to light. I cried for the loss, I drank for the loss, I told friends of the loss and I wrote music to the loss. I wrote an album that told of the most amazing girl that had entered my life for a short while only to leave like a thief in the night.
One night in particular, I reflected on the greatest of all the memories, one that was even greater than the first time I did the impossible and kissed the woman of my dreams. In fact, the greatest moment of all time in regards to the time I spent with you was the time when I held you as you slept in the darkness of the night, so close that I could smell that faint intoxicating scent coming from your hair, the strands softly grazing my cheeks. I was paying close attention to the details: the bridge of your nose, the arc of your lips, the occasional snore that you casually made. This was the one and only time that I truly felt like I had you. In short, it was the equivalent of basking in the radiance of God himself. I lied there helplessly in love and desperately trying to remember each and every fleeing moment at 3 in the morning, the seconds leaving faster than they arrived.
The night I remembered all of that was the night I cried, drank, and dwelled until I slept out of exhaustion and inebriation. I wrote powerful songs that told of the story of that lonely night, songs that I regard to this day as some of the best music I've ever written as a professional songwriter.
Months went by and the feeling of something missing never went away. A hunger that remained, a never-ending feeling of suspension. I wrote and wrote until there was nothing left to say. Love songs that you'd never hear, aspirations of a future where the years had gone by and our wrinkles were in bloom. I stopped chronicling after the desires and wishes became abhorrently redundant. I would never have you and the truth cut deep, silently, and painfully slow. I reluctantly decided that the time had come for me to move on. I might have never had you, but I got to hold you and kiss you like you were mine. If I was never going to experience that again, then what I experienced was going to have to be good enough to last forever.
There was nothing new and there was nothing more. It was, quite simply, the end.